tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post1227265163178715152..comments2023-07-17T23:10:02.228+10:00Comments on Discombobula: Freeze FrameSuehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01122659239039900398noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-13763616609415947622013-11-26T11:53:37.667+11:002013-11-26T11:53:37.667+11:00You're welcome, Sue. :) Yes it does help to ...You're welcome, Sue. :) Yes it does help to know others feel it. I am trying to be more aware of those harsh voices and counter them with compassion for myself. It is interesting, reading Toni Bernhard's latest book called How to Wake Up, where she mentions that when asked how to counter self-hate, the Dalia Lama had no understanding of the question, because he was not raised to have such a thing. It isn't a necessary/inescapeable part of being human, which I guess I had thought it was. It is part of our conditioning as we were raised in the western world, with perhaps an added dollop of abuse to gild the sow's ear. :P Keechyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13508060247369251383noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-43527779873222096002013-11-21T10:01:58.893+11:002013-11-21T10:01:58.893+11:00A tornado - that's exactly what it feels like....A tornado - that's exactly what it feels like. It feels like an extra punch in the face, doesn't it? It feels unfair, somehow. And I agree - we need to know what is going on with us in order to change it. Like I said to my partner last night, when I have those situations, it is so abundantly clear the extent of the horrible things I say to myself. Do I speak to myself like that all the time? No, I don't think so. But I guess I can't be sure about that. But that is one of the horrors of understanding how you have been affected by things - what you've taken on with it, the levels of self-hatred we can feel for ourselves. It's pretty astounding, really. Scary. But yes, I agree, it does feel like each one of those episodes there is a little bit less tucked away in there. <br /><br />I'm sad that you have these times too ... but am glad that you shared about it here. It really does help sharing our stories, I reckon. Helps to alleviate all of that ridiculous isolated "this is only happening to me and no one else" weird perspective that often comes with this sort of trauma. So thanks, Keechy.Suehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01122659239039900398noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-82876539326092857942013-11-20T17:20:12.739+11:002013-11-20T17:20:12.739+11:00Hmm, been a few of those ditches for me lately. I...Hmm, been a few of those ditches for me lately. In my case due to homeopathy getting at deep-seated emotional stuff linked to memories. That 'I am shit' feeling comes up like a tornado on the back of a memory and hits you like a blow. Man, is harder than the physical stuff, that's for sure. All the reading and practicing one does, well, it pretty much goes out the window hey? Still, as the Buddhist text I am reading says, how will we know our mind unless we sit with our mind? And, at least it shows how far we have come, because that 'I am shit' feeling isn't there all the time any more, and each bit we deal with leaves a little bit less tucked away in there. Keechyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13508060247369251383noreply@blogger.com