tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post4955850533598392249..comments2023-07-17T23:10:02.228+10:00Comments on Discombobula: Humble PieSuehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01122659239039900398noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-56044679721623722842009-11-22T13:57:56.519+11:002009-11-22T13:57:56.519+11:00So who hasn't freaked out at the upcoming birt...So who hasn't freaked out at the upcoming birthday? I forbade any celebration of my 50th. When I got to be 60, I felt grotty, but since someone I knew gracefully turned 60 a few weeks prior, I decided to give in and be glad I am still alive and kicking. One day, God willing, you will look back at number 39 or even 40 with fondness. Frankly, the 40s are the best of years. <br><br>And I am glad you are not closing shop at your blog. Take a hiatus, if you must, but keep on thrashing about and bringing life and spirit into your readers' lives.<br><br>Peace, Sue.Barbarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17078914306329037697noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-6343877349493716142009-11-22T16:35:05.553+11:002009-11-22T16:35:05.553+11:00I'm just glad your still here. I think we'...I'm just glad your still here. I think we've all been emotional and embarrassed - some (as in ME) more often than others.<br><br>If you expect any sympathy from me on your age .... sorry. I just survived 50 so you can do 40. :)Barbara aka Laylahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11100008292699584336noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-45123544289226949562009-11-22T23:25:01.369+11:002009-11-22T23:25:01.369+11:00Dear Sue, this is the best news! It's OK, real...Dear Sue, this is the best news! It's OK, really, to be emotional. Actually, it's OK to be a twit. I should know.<br><br>I'm 61 the day after tomorrow, and this morning I broke a tooth on a nut in my muesli. I've been trying to persuade myself this doesn't mean I'm falling rapidly to bits. See? Twit.<br><br>But it's the Festival of Christ the King, the same Lord who danced around the lounge with you. And he says it's OK. So it is. Really. Gloriously. Truly.<br><br>Love & all kinds of blessings from this wet windy place on the other side of the world...<br><br>Mike xxMikeFhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06732248182662167951noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-21327527204260978842009-11-23T00:02:55.581+11:002009-11-23T00:02:55.581+11:00Thanks for being so truly honest...so raw! As I r...Thanks for being so truly honest...so raw! As I read this, I was so glad I'm not the only one on this earth who freaks out and gets completely emotional. Sometimes for me, it overtakes me so that I don't even recongnize ME in there anywhere! I relate to your response to your own actions so well...Give yourself a bit of grace...we are all imperfect, and all need some sympathy. It is still embarrassing to me that people will find me emotional somehow, because I was raised in a similar way I suppose. But, I AM emotional! I am. I confess. Thanks for making me feel not so alone!! <br>I'm glad you are still here, I enjoy reading your blog...I'm glad you are so human and so real. Whether you know it or now, you bring comfort and humor to a lot of people here. <br>Keep diggin' in, girl. It's not comfortable, but it is good.wanting morehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17569456393417911543noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-81856228059634006982009-11-23T04:57:45.101+11:002009-11-23T04:57:45.101+11:00Keep rockin', SusieQ, just like your namesake,...Keep rockin', SusieQ, just like your namesake, who's still going strong!:)MysticBrithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14341037712756284832noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-2835403168510418672009-11-23T12:21:55.731+11:002009-11-23T12:21:55.731+11:00Aww, honey, you are just fine. If I told you my em...Aww, honey, you are just fine. If I told you my emotional roller coaster the last few days, you'd feel better. Maybe I'll shoot you an e-mail about it. And lest you think the difference is that I was smart enough not to blog about it, don't be fooled. I sat down twice to blog about it, but was interrupted both times by something unavoidable.<br><br>There is some pain that is so deep and buried and well disguised that when it surfaces it leaves a maelstrom of ugly and makes us all topsy-turvy. I know this as deeply and experientially as anyone. <br><br>And you know that I share your birthday angst, being only a few weeks behind you of the same year. I think that is something that has been hitting me hard too lately. The idea that maybe I just am who I am, and there is no real hope of being anything different or improved over who I am right now. All the years of youth and thinking this life stretched out ahead of me and I had all the time in the world to "do something" or "be something" ...well it seems to be fading. And I hate it.<br><br>I love you and am glad you are not going anywhere. Not that I would love you less if you did, but selfishly I would miss the insight you share so often that is so profound for me. Hugs, sister.Erinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01067954787472463337noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-46315257988611430142009-11-23T13:13:40.515+11:002009-11-23T13:13:40.515+11:00suzy Q. i love you!!! i don't have many extr...suzy Q. i love you!!! i don't have many extra words lately, but wanted to share those with you... and old? oh, don't get me started!! xoxoxolucyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01479940262271959482noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-33537567325423852852009-11-24T09:17:52.949+11:002009-11-24T09:17:52.949+11:00that waltz around the loungeroom vision is very po...that waltz around the loungeroom vision is very powerfule Sue<br><br>as that well known song says:<br><br><i>I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance<br>Never settle for the path of least resistance<br>Living might mean taking chances<br>But they're worth taking<br>Lovin' might be a mistake<br>But it's worth making<br>Don't let some hell bent heart<br>Leave you bitter<br>When you come close to selling out<br>Reconsider<br>Give the heavens above<br>More than just a passing glance<br><br>And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance<br>I hope you dance </i>Kelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18425317942978557478noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-25050338099280731992009-11-24T10:32:48.934+11:002009-11-24T10:32:48.934+11:00Barbara - how much that helps, seeing someone else...Barbara - how much that helps, seeing someone else do gracefully what we are feeling clunky about. I am looking with interest so much at older women these days. Our society so tries to erode our ability to walk surefooted in ourselves when the collagen levels drop. We are all such imitators of each other. I remember you saying that before, that the 40s are the best of years (I think it was you??) I am holding it in my hands and hoping, because the 30s have been shithouse, basically.<br><br>Barbara - it is embarrassing to be emotional all over my blog. It feels the utmost in unsafety to me. My household growing up was stoic to say the least. I don't expect any sympathy from you; I am finding 40 hard enough let alone 50. Isn't it funny how the older you get, when you look back at 29 year olds bemoaning turning 30 you sort of smirk, but I guess it holds true all the way through - getting older is a hard deal and I guess we all struggle with it the moment we reach the age where we have all the freedom we were yearning for when we were younger. Weird.<br><br>Mike - yeah, it feels okay in my head to be emotional, but down inside where the emotions generate, it is a different story, I think. Something God may have to have many silent conversations with me about to get me seeing straight. Thank you for your comfort blessings, they are sorely needed at the moment. My trust levels in God are sadly bereft at least at the moment. <br><br>I heard about the crazy rain going on in the Lake District the other day. Are you near there?<br><br>Kari - Isn't it funny how little grace we can give ourselves sometimes? It's sort of scary. Thanks for sharing your experience, it helps to know other people understand and struggle too. It's funny how we all share common experience but those very things can make us feel so alone!<br><br>MysticBrit - thanks, dude! Is she really still going strong? Wow, good for her. <br><br>Erin - thank you for sharing your emotional rollercoaster with me. It does make a difference. It helps to share and it helps to hear that our experiences end up being common ones. You know, I don't wonder if really and truly accepting who we are would end up resulting in greater change. It feels like such a rock around your neck to be trying to be better than you are - and yet i do it all the time because ... well, because being who I am at the moment is a big pile of stinking poo basically and I do not like the thought that I am stuck with this person. I much prefer earlier versions. And yet maybe we both will prefer later versions. Perhaps we are both doing groundwork we cannot quite see at this point. I hope so.<br><br>Lucy - thank you darling. I think it's good sometimes being in those spaces where you don't have many words to share. It doesn't feel like it of course - I can't believe how at the time how entirely I believe that I will never write another word or make another clay thing. Such a weird space to be in, the ebb and flow of things. I don't think I have in the least bit begun to understand my rhythms in that way. And yeah, the old getting old ... gets old very quickly, doesn't it :) What a strange world we live in where we are all made to feel guilty for doing something none of us are going to escape doing (if we're lucky).<br><br>Kel - I had to look that song up, so it wasn't well known to me. What pretty lyrics. Thank you, my dear. I hope so too. I hope we all dance. It feels so hard to these days. I'm glad you keep dancing with your brush :)Suehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01122659239039900398noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-20360532709029142402009-11-24T10:40:05.315+11:002009-11-24T10:40:05.315+11:00Thanks for your concern, Sue. No, I'm nowhere ...Thanks for your concern, Sue. No, I'm nowhere near the Lake District - 380 miles by Google Maps from Cockermouth, the worst hit place. Cumbria is NW, Dorset SW. But it's pretty wet here all the same. But by God's grace Wool drains pretty well.<br><br>Take care, you!<br><br>MikeMikeFhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06732248182662167951noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-22617905086788033702009-11-25T00:10:29.485+11:002009-11-25T00:10:29.485+11:00I'm coming to this late as I've been away ...I'm coming to this late as I've been away and stuff, so I missed the attempted shutdown. I'm so glad you've reconsidered, I LOVE reading your "shit". Which, of course, is anything but.<br><br>And I agree with Barbara, the 40s are great.Tesshttp://www.anchormast.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4879615387850345622.post-9711798931059094742009-11-25T09:04:18.651+11:002009-11-25T09:04:18.651+11:00Well..... glad you've sorted that out. Keep wr...Well..... glad you've sorted that out. Keep writing Sue - stick with what you're good at.<br><br>Age - Hah!! It's only a number and we all get a bit antsy about particular ones. Hell, I can't even remember 40 anymore... why worry??Normhttp://norm54.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.com