Feelin' Good

I woke this morning after a dream I couldn't remember, talking to God. So happy, rolling in healing and in love. I can't remember a thing about it (which is unusual for me) but it's the second or third one I have had in the last month or so. All I come away with is the feeling of communion and growth and healing. Terribly sweet, even with no recollection.

The last post was embarrassingly long and boring so I deleted it. I feel like I'm beginning to repeat myself here. Actually, I am feeling a bit restricted by the whole blogging thing at the moment. I mean, how much can you say in 500 words, which is the standard blog post (or it's meant to be, unless you're me and write double that)? I am trying to write less here and write more in other places.

The short story I was in the middle of writing before I had the fortnight of fatigue still remains unpicked up. It surprises me how hard it is to get back into the swing again. I find that the importance of jotting down the things that occur to me as I'm doing random things can't be underestimated. It's like when I take the time to note down, the way I did yesterday, "Her perfume smelled sickening, like the inside of a dog's ear" that the inner part of me that is wondering if I am serious about this writing deal starts settling me for serious. And hopefully that's when the glimmer comes and the story comes to life again. So I wait, rather impatiently :)

I've been feeling a whole lot better again the last few days. I don't know what is going on in my body. Perhaps I had some sort of a virus that lasted a fortnight. I dunno. All I know is that when I feel better again the most mundane things are wonderful. These blips on my health radar remind me about how important it is to get healthy, lose weight, get more active, keep moving. Hooray for the springtime :)

I have just applied for several jobs. Before doing so I checked my resume and realised that it contained my old email address. Oops. Maybe that's why I haven't heard back from any job I've applied for in the last year. Still, I'm not holding my breath about hearing back from any of them but remaining hopeful all the same. It's a pretty competitive job market out there. But still, regardless of the outcome, doing the little things that feel like I'm doing something make a big difference just to my motivation levels.

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