Women still hold themselves back in ways that men do not. I don't want to want you to like me. I want to devolve myself of that mass entity I've taken on through my childhood and through the culture that makes me worry about what you think of me. I want to be me and to remember that what you think of me is none of my business. I want to be me so that if you don't like me or who I am, then you can pretty much lump it, go away, learn to like it, learn to bear with it, or just plain fuck off.
I don't want to want you to like me. I want you to either like me or not like me, and if you do that's great, and if you don't that's great too. Because you are fickle with tastes that may or may not include me. And I'm me. Not to everybody's taste. But being me is what I am trying to be, and I suspect it will take my entire life to learn to do it right. There were some pretty big setbacks from the start.
But it's my birthright.