It's the ultimate cliche to say that someone is brave when having cancer treatment. I've always thought it was the most ridiculous thing to say, a Hallmark superficiality that's actually a little insulting in some ways - how are you brave taking an option you have no option but to take? Surely bravery is when you do something courageous when there is the option to not do anything at all?
And yet I do feel tempted to call her brave in the way she's approached this, although she might argue that here as well, emotionally dealing with a life-threatening illness that's become real really doesn't have options either - you either sink under the weight of it in terror and further compromise an immune system already under assault, or you live in the moment, taking each one. And if this whole experience has taught her anything, she says, it's how to live in the moment because any other moment is too terrifying ... and no other moment is available for maximum livability but this one.
So I don't know if I would say it's bravery or not, but what I do know is that I am so massively proud of the way she's faced the terror of it all. And so relieved that the treatment is, as of today, something that does live in the past.
May it always live there.
Love you, Andi. I wish I could have done more physically to have helped you through this time than I have. More practical things of Grandma quality :)
But if intention and love and desire counts for anything from my end, you'll live till you're 126 surrounded by great-great-grandchildren :)
And that's about as Hallmark as it's gonna get.
Ooosh noosh. You love Eric Estrada <3
|Circa 1980, when you were going to be taking your film to the chemist to be developed for the next decade and more,|
this was the ultimate in newfangled cutting-edge excitements that we had from the Doncaster Shoppingtown.