Okay. That's enough choofing for me. A few days in a row and I'm bored out of my skull with it :) I do, however, in my heretical Christianness reserve the right to smoke a couple of scoobs with some friends every now and then. Once in a blue moon, and it's just plain fun, you know? But me, I can't even smoke my way through a quarter of a gram before losing interest, heh :) Unfortunately, I also can't have it sitting there and not smoke it either. How strange, that propensity is. Much better for me to never have any in the house, and to just enjoy it when I come upon it.

I am happier living in my own reality than without druggish chains to bind me, thank you very much. But oh, I do love how music opens itself up like a flower, after a couple of puffs :) But I dislike how everything is heightened. It is an annoying situation to be randy as hell with no one to share it with, and no desire to go down commonly socially prescribed fuck buddy routes/roots ;) Too much information, you say? Well, yes, it's comments like that which make me feel too vulnerable when I'm on the flipside of openness, hehe ;) But I enjoy being real, however ugly or beautiful that is, to pretend too much. This is what goes on with me. I figure if any of these thoughts and beliefs are not good for me, the first way to discover that is to lay it all out, in the sun. It feels good to be open, almost all of the time. Yes it feels vulnerable too, almost all of the time. It's just the space of vulnerability; I don't know how to do it any different.

I actually don't see any difference between dope and alcohol. Both are pathetic and destructive when leant on. I do find it bizarre, however, that some people who rant and rave on about dope then go off and down a couple of glasses of whatever their favourite brew is and don't even consider the hypocrisy.

Personally, I can't see the difference. Personally, if I had a choice, I would have preferred my dad had smoked dope every day than drank every day. Not that that wouldn't have been shite either, but much more the paranoia of smoking than the belligerence of alcoholically-fuelled tempers.

And while I'm on the topic, since when did making something illegal or legal change the behaviour of humans? All it does is run it underground.

And that's all I have to say about that :)